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Chapter 4 Part 18
Translator : PolterGlast
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"Haa,
haa, haa ......... did I manage to slip away?"
Nozomu
escaped by leading the black demon beast to the goblins and finally took a
breather after confirming that there was no sign of chasing from behind.
"It
should be fine for now ... but should I be prepared just in case?"
Since
there were so many uncertain parts including the opponent's battle strength, it
was better to prepare all the means he could use.
Thinking
so, Nozomu decided to take a detour before going to Shino's hut.
The
sun had completely set and the darkness of the night engulfed the area;
however, Nozomu started walking, relying on the slight moonlight and starlight.
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Shīna
and her friends, who had been walking in the forest, finally arrived at Shino's
hut, and after Mimuru laid Tom on the bed, she immediately took out the
medicine and treatment tools from the shelves and started the treatment.
She
washed the wound, sewed it with a thread, sprinkled a potion, and bandaged it.
Tom
was still breathing roughly, with cold sweat rising from his forehead.
“………………”
On
the other hand, Shīna cast healing magic on Tom, but she was also worried about
Nozomu cleaning up her mess. She was still dazed. She couldn't concentrate on
the magic yet, and the healing light that came out of her hands was unstable.
"...
Shīna, concentrate properly ..."
"!
I'm sorry ..."
Shīna
was rushed to concentrate on her magic after being scolded by Mimuru. Mimuru's
hands were also busy treating her lover's wounds, and her voice was a bit harsh
and cold. Obviously, she was having a hard time too.
Eventually,
Tom, who was breathing roughly and in pain, calmed down.
"...
I think it's alright for the time being ..."
"I
see ……"
Even
though Tom had been treated, he was badly injured and lost a lot of blood, so
he fell asleep as soon as the pain subsided.
Tom's
treatment was over. The two sat down and rested, but they remained silent
without speaking to each other.
Shīna
stared at the floor, probably worried about the mistake she made. She dropped
her shoulders and clenched her fists tightly on her lap.
Mimuru
couldn't calm herself down either. Perhaps out of uneasiness, her gaze fell on
Tom, who was sleeping.
There
was an awkward atmosphere in the room, but since nothing could dispel that
atmosphere, the silence only continued.
"...
Hey Shīna. Why didn't you try to escape at that time?"
"……
Eh?"
Eventually,
Mimuru broke the silence and asked Shīna about her actions earlier.
"By
all means, that demon beast isn't normal. I understand that we didn't
immediately realize that the demon beast was too much for us, but why were you
trying to do something so reckless?"
"Well,
that was ..."
Mimuru
questioned Shīna, but her tone was harsh. Instead of asking, she blamed Shīna.
Mimuru's
gaze was filled with anger, and Shīna was frozen.
"If
you didn't do something so reckless at that time and just escaped, Nozomu
wouldn’t have had to be a decoy, and Tom wouldn't have gotten hurt!"
“…………”
Against
Mimuru's words, Shīna couldn't say anything, only looking down.
Given
the current situation, it made sense for Mimuru to question Shīna and blame her
one-sidedly.
They
fled from the black demon beast, but they were currently still in the forest,
and their safety was only temporary. The black demon beast wasn't the only
demon beast in the forest.
Apart
from simply asking why Shīna didn't try to escape, one-sided blame could lead
to the self-destruction of a party.
However,
it was because Mimuru was mentally driven against a wall and her lover, Tom,
was also seriously injured. As a result, she put the blame on Shīna, which
eventually lead to this situation.
Escaping
to a safe place dwindled down her tense feelings, and Shīna just looked down
without saying as much as a word to such a question. This fueled her anger
further.
Mimuru's
accusing voice gradually became louder.
"Please
... say something!!"
Mimuru
grabbed Shīna, but Shīna closed her eyes tightly, clenched her lips and didn't
say a thing.
However,
Mimuru's patience reached its limit as Shīna remained silent.
She
raised her hand and tried to hit Shīna. However, at that moment, a rattling
sound was heard from the door of the hut.
Tension
ran between the two.
Shīna
held the bow beside her, and Mimuru took out the dagger at her waist.
It
was the black demon beast that flashed through their heads.
Tom
couldn't move and there was no Nozomu. It was clear that if Nozomu was attacked
by the demon beast, he would’ve been killed in no time.
Mimuru
held the dagger and slowly headed for the door, and Shīna drew her bow to the
limit so she could shoot arrows any time.
When
the door rattled and opened, a humanoid body covered in mud came into view.
"!
Mimuru!!"
"Eh?"
Shīna
called out to Mimuru and shot her nocked arrow at the humanoid's forehead. It
seemed that the humanoid was saying something, but it was blocked by Shīna's
voice and they couldn't hear it.
"Uaaaaaa!!"
With
a scream and dexterity that didn’t seem to be that of a humanoid mud monster’s,
the humanoid monster dodged the approaching arrow.
Mimuru
stepped forward and swung her dagger.
"Haaaaa!!"
"Wa-Wait
..."
The
humanoid monster tried to say something, but neither of them noticed it, and
the humanoid monster hit the belly of the dagger that Mimuru swung with
something like a stick and parried it.
Mimuru
was surprised that her attack had been blocked, but immediately turned her
sword around and tried to launch another slash.
However,
just before that, they heard a familiar voice in their ears.
"Wait!
Both of you!!"
The
voice stopped the two of them from moving.
On
closer inspection, the humanoid monster was actually a human with mud all over
his body.
They
both recognized him.
""
Nozomu-kun?""
"That's
right. It's me! Why did I have to be suddenly attacked by my allies!!"
Nozomu
became the black demon beast’s decoy to let the three escape. It would have
been unavoidable for him to scream in a loud voice as he ran around the forest
and desperately escaped with his life.
"So
sorry, Nozomu-kun."
"Umm
... I'm sorry ..."
"...
No, it's okay ..."
Mimuru
and Shīna dropped their shoulders and apologized. Instead of thanking someone,
who could have been said to be their savior, they had their weapons pointed at
him instead. There was no other choice but to feel down about it.
Nozomu
was angry at first, but he thought it was unavoidable given his current
appearance.
Nozomu
had washed away all the mud over his body, and the clothes he wore had been
dried by fire.
Mimuru
asked Nozomu again.
"...
So, Nozomu-kun? Why were you so full of mud?"
"Oh,
that was to prevent the demon beast from chasing me by the smell."
Among
the demon beasts that were chasing Nozomu in the forest, there were also demon
beasts that relied on their sense of smell. Wild Dogs were an example.
In
order to avoid being chased by such demon beasts, he entered the river to
remove his body odor and smeared mud all over his body to prevent his body odor
from leaking out.
"...
More importantly, how are Tom's injuries?"
"...
We're done with the treatment and he's sleeping right now; however, I think
it's better to take him to the city as soon as possible ..."
“……………..”
"??"
Nozomu
looked towards Shīna, but she remained looking down while Mimuru answered
Nozomu's question. Mimuru didn’t even look at Shīna and deliberately ignored
her.
"Hey,
did something happen?"
"...
Is there something wrong?"
"That
is ..."
"I'm
going outside to keep watch. Call me if anything happens ..."
"O-Oi
..."
Nozomu
tried to ask the two, who seemed to have a strange atmosphere flowing between
them, but Shīna didn't answer Nozomu, who was trying to stop her, and she left.
"……
What's going on?"
"...
I don't care. Just ask Shīna ..."
Mimuru
turned around as if she was messing around with him.
Nozomu
sighed, took out a large pot from the kitchen, boiled some water on the fire,
and started to make a simple soup.
"……?
What are you doing?"
"You
know, I'm making food. We can't carry on if we don't eat when we have the
chance. That's our situation..."
Thus,
Nozomu neatly prepared the meal, sliced the dried meat with a knife, took out
the soup stock, and put the potatoes he had stored in the hut. He boiled and
checked the taste. He took cooking salt and poured it into the pot to preserve
the taste.
"...
I can't guarantee it’ll taste good, but it'll warm our bodies for the time
being. I've prepared some for Tom as well, so if he can get up, let him
eat."
Mimuru
accepted the bowl presented by Nozomu, but she looked at the bowl in her hand
with a complex expression.
"……
Are you alright?"
"Uh,
yeah, I'm fine! Don't worry ... Thank you."
Mimuru,
who had a sunken expression, immediately smiled, but Nozomu could see from the
side that she was trying to hide it.
Nozomu
tried to say something when he saw her in low spirits, but at that moment, he
heard a groan from Tom who was sleeping.
"Looks
like Tom is awake. I'm going to bring food for Tom, so Nozomu will bring food
for Shīna … If I bring it to her, I can't stand her, and we’ll fight again. I
think it's going to happen ..."
Such
a girl had a self-deprecating smile. She had a frustrated expression that
seemed to be regretting something.
When
Nozomu saw it, he couldn't say anything.
"……
I understand"
In
the end, Nozomu had no choice but to bring Shīna her soup.
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Shīna’s
POV
I
was sitting on the roof of the hut while holding my knees.
I
said I was going to keep watch, but I couldn't concentrate on doing that after
all.
My
head was full of regret and frustration.
In
the past when my hometown, Foskia Forest, fell due to the great invasion, it
was the black demon beast that appeared and stood in front of me. I couldn't
believe the scene that unfolded in front of me.
The
appearance was somewhat different from the one that appeared today, but there
was no doubt about the black sludge that covered its entire body and the myriad
blood-red eyes on its body.
The
horror and the inescapable presence of death tightened my whole body like an
iron chain, and I thought that I would be killed by my fear of it before
anything else.
It
was my beloved parents and sister who rescued me.
(Shīna,
run)
While
my father and mother were fighting, my sister, while facing the demon beast,
turned her back and spoke those words to me.
At
first, I didn't know what my sister was saying, but when I understood her
words, I shook my head like a spoiled child and pleaded. I said, "We can't
win even if we fight. Let's run together."
The
black demon beast couldn't be defeated by any means, and my parents and sister
who were fighting should have known about it, but my sister didn't listen to my
pleas.
My
parents fought desperately, but they couldn't win.
My
father and mother were killed, and it was my sister's turn next. The demon
beast that dyed its entire body red with my parents' blood glanced at me and
grinned. I was so scared that I couldn't move.
"Snap
out of it! Shīna!!"
It
was the pain that ran down my cheek from my sister hitting me and my sister's
scolding that released me from my shock.
"Listen,
Shīna, I'll say it again. You should run away quickly. Don't look back. Keep
running straight. I will follow you later."
My
sister said so, but I soon realized that was impossible. Still, she forced
herself to smile, not to make me worry about her.
"B-But
..."
As
I couldn't make a decision, the black demon beast attacked my sister.
"Ku~uu
!!"
My
sister created a magical barrier to hold down the demon beast, but the barrier
immediately cracked and was unlikely to last for a long time.
Still,
I couldn't make a decision. Whether to run away alone or to fight alongside my
sister.
It
was my sister's cry that moved my paralyzed legs.
"Go!
Shīna!!"
It
was a gentle scolding from an older sister. The moment I heard it, I turned my
back on her and ran away with all my might.
"Uu~u,
uwa~a~aaa ..."
I
kept running, staining my face with tears and snot. Leaving my loving family
behind.
Then
I wandered across the continent with my surviving companions.
No,
instead of wandering around, we had to do so because we had nowhere to stay.
At
that time, the countries that were being invaded on a large scale were
exhausted and unable to accept refugees. Some of the survivors were able to
flee to countries that were not invaded, but there were simply too many
refugees to take in.
We
were not accepted and wandered around instead. All we could do was to endure
our starvation in the barren lands.
As
I grew up, I decided to enroll in Solminati Academy.
In
the past, I couldn't do anything, so I decided to change from my past weak
self. I needed to become stronger to reclaim my hometown. Of course, I couldn't
become as strong as Jihad-sensei. I couldn’t seem to grasp his true strength.
Even
so, I thought that I would've been able to shake off my weakness from the harsh
training days here...
My
arms, which held my knees, were strengthened and I squeezed them tightly.
It
was because of me that we were in such a terrible situation.
I
felt nothing but frustration and regret. There was only a feeling of anger at
myself that kept swirling in the depths of my chest.
I
just want to be alone for now. Even so ...
"My
oh my, I couldn't find you around the hut, so when I was wondering where you
were going. Who knew you were in such a place."
I
heard the voice of the person I hated the most.
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Mimuru's
POV
"U-Ugh
..."
"Tom?
Are you alright?"
"Mimuru
... Yeah, somehow ..."
"Thank
God ……"
As
far as Tom looked, he seemed alright ……. A relieved voice came out of my mouth
because nothing worse had happened for the time being.
"Can
you get up?I have soup ... Can you eat it?"
"...
It's a little tough, but I'll eat. I think I have to eat it anyway
..."
With
that said, I helped Tom, who was trying to sit up.
As
I thought, Tom's delicate body was light. Maybe he was lighter than me...
For
a long time, Tom was bullied for his petite size.
At
first, I also bullied him, and I didn't think we would ever become lovers at
that time.
As
we grew, Tom and I slowly changed though.
Tom's
body was still delicate and tiny, but he was so smart that he was able to study
and do various things, and before I knew it, I was looking up to him.
Shortly
before we came to this school, I confessed to him when I couldn't help but
think of Tom all the time.
At
that time, I was so embarrassed that my face turned visibly red. I almost ran
away, but at the same time, I was very happy and realized my own feelings.
"Hot!"
"Ah,
sorry!"
Tom
had an injury on his right arm so I was feeding him, but it seemed a little hot
...
"Fuu,
fuu ..."
Tom
asked with a mysterious expression on his face as he was still blowing into the
hot soup to cool it down.
"...
Hey, Mimuru. Are you okay?"
"……About
what?"
"Because
you were in a fight with Shīna, right?"
"...
You know?"
"Yeah,
because Mimuru, I'll know what you're thinking the moment I see your
face."
It
was often said that I wasn’t suited to do bargaining and negotiating.
"...
Can't you forgive Shīna?"
"...
But ..."
I
met Shīna shortly after I enrolled in school. She was sitting next to me in our
first year.
Back
then, Shīna always looked more restless than she was now and always had a
ghastly expression.
She
didn't cut corners in class or practice. She was always pushing herself, and
she could collapse from exhaustion at any moment.
"...
Hey, aren't you tired of being so uptight like that?"
I
said that not because I was worried about her. It simply felt suffocating.
"...
It's none of your business."
Shīna
glanced at me, and then soon lost interest in me, turning her eyes back to the
textbook she was reading.
I
didn't like her attitude, so I lifted my eyebrows and picked up the textbook
she was reading.
Now
that I thought about it, it was childish and embarrassing behavior; however, I
thought Shīna was more of a child than I was at that time.
How
Shīna cast a spell on me just to get her textbook back.
Aside
from me, who was blown away by magic, Shīna picked up her fallen textbook and
went back to reading.
As
expected, that completely pissed me off. The fact that she was the one who
started using violence first made me angry, so I jumped at her, causing a
literal catfight. The two of us received a scolding from our homeroom teacher.
After
that, we kept fighting about everything.
We
answered the teacher's questions in lectures to compete with each other, but
Shīna was always on top. Every time she came up with the correct answer, I
glared at Shīna, who turned her face towards me.
In
practical skills, we did the tasks so that we could compete with each other,
and my results in the mock battle were better. Shīna was glaring at me and
clenched her bow tightly. I was so excited that I was able to get back at her.
We
were always in conflict like that, but since Tom joined us and became the
intermediary between Shīna and me, we began to speak normally, albeit little by
little.
Before
I knew it, we started to eat lunch together. Before I knew it, we started to go
home together, and before I knew it, we started to adventure together.
I
thought I was her best friend. I thought she would tell me anything.
We
didn’t know anything about Shīna's past. Thinking about what happened 10 years
ago, I could have imagined what happened, but even then. I didn’t think we
would be so reserved for two years.
However,
Shīna didn't tell me anything.
I
was angry at Shīna for being so reckless and causing Tom to get hurt. But most
importantly, I was so worried about her. Even though it hurt, I wonder why she
didn't tell me anything.
"But,
isn't it irritating? Shīna who doesn't say anything. We who can’t help
her..."
"Mimuru
..."
Tom
was at a loss for words as Mimuru confessed with a sad expression.
We
couldn’t do anything. I was disappointed with myself because the power, which I
had desperately cultivated in this school, couldn't be used to help her.
We
were also very aware of our immaturity.
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"What
are you doing? In a place like this ..."
"Nothing
in particular ..."
While
facing the other direction, Shīna answered Nozomu's question. She didn't move
while still holding her knees.
"...
Why don't you eat something for the time being? I made a simple soup ..."
“…………”
Nozomu
sat one body away next to Shīna and offered her the steaming soup, but Shīna
didn't even look at the bowl.
“……………”
“……………”
Silence
flowed between the two.
(It's
awkward ...)
Nozomu
seemed to be suffocated. He was exposed to the gloomy air she released and got
stuck in words.
He
didn't know Shīna's circumstances. He knew the black demon beast had something
to do with her, but he knew nothing about the trauma she had suffered in the
past.
Because
of that, Nozomu didn't know what to say, so the action he took was to encourage
her to say something...
"H-Hey,
say something"
"I'd
like to ask you something ..."
"W-What?"
"Why
are you okay with being left behind?"
"Eh?"
Nozomu
was a little taken back by her question, but he answered her question casually.
"Well
... because there was no other way ..."
Nozomu
explained why he decided to do it back then.
"At
that time, neither Mimuru nor you were in a state capable of fighting properly.
Both of you were terribly agitated when Tom was injured. Also, it was impossible
to escape from that black demon beast while protecting an injured person;
therefore, we needed a decoy to give us some time. I was the only one who could
do it back then ..."
It
was the truth, but that truth became a burden for her current self.
She
lost her composure. She knew very well that Tom was injured because of her
mistake. She wasn't so stupid that she didn't understand it. She blamed herself
for being responsible for Tom’s injuries.
Now
she was depressed because of that mistake.
She
had lived a stressful life due to her helplessness. In the battle with the
black demon beast, she couldn't do anything and lost herself, and as a result,
her friend fell into trouble. The thread that had been strained until now
completely snapped.
"No
other reason!? It would have been better for me to be left behind!! It's
because I'm the cause, so I'm the one who should be left behind!!”
Suddenly,
she drew closer toward Nozomu and shouted in a loud voice.
"More
importantly you're just a 10th class student!? No matter how I think about it,
it wouldn't be possible for you to escape from it!! Why did you do that when
you knew you were going to die!!"
"Wa-Wait!"
Shīna
grabbed Nozomu by the collar, raised her eyes, and she brought her face close
enough to feel each other's breath.
Nozomu
immediately tried to remove her hand, but when he saw the boulder-like tears in
her eyes, he couldn't bring himself to shake her hand off.
"Yes!
Surely, you are different from me, who can't do anything! It's said that you
are the weakest, but you are actually strong!! Even then, that beast is beyond
dangerous. Why would you do something reckless?!"
What
she was saying was completely incoherent.
She
saw Nozomu fighting, albeit a little, and she knew Nozomu made a detailed
forest map. Given that he was able to escape from the demon beast, she already
knew that Nozomu's abilities were different from what she had heard in the
rumors.
However,
what Nozomu did made Shīna remember her sister who had helped her by
sacrificing herself 10 years ago. The last moments of her beloved older sister.
It could be called trauma.
She
saw her sister's final moments overlap with Nozomu's actions. Even though she knew
that Nozomu's actions were for the best, such a fact was ignored because she
was emotionally unstable.
“……………………”
Nozomu
became quite suffocated because Shīna grabbed his collar so tightly, but he was
also fascinated by the girl in front of him.
The
elf girl was illuminated by the moonlit night. Her slender limbs and long
flowing blue hair were distinguished. Tears were in her eyes and the moonlight
shone through her tears. It was a fantastic sight like a fairy tale.
But
more than that, the manifestation of her violent emotions, which she kept
hidden in her chest, nailed into Nozomu.
"Why,
why……"
She
looked down and continued to mumble while crying. She didn't even know who the
words she was muttering were directed to.
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"...
I'm sorry. I said a lot of strange things ..."
"N-No.
Don't mind it ..."
She
continued to cry for a while, but now that she calmed down, the two of them sat
one body next to each other again.
The
two sat without facing each other. Even though they exchanged a word or two
with each other, they immediately sank back into silence due to their
awkwardness.
"...
Thank you … For listening to my complaints without saying anything ..."
"Eh?"
Nozomu
was embarrassed by the words that broke the silence. He didn't know the reason
for being thanked.
Nozomu
didn't tell her anything. She didn't tell Nozomu about her past either.
Nozomu
also knew that Shīna had something that she couldn't tell, and she was
suffering from it but couldn't talk about it, but he didn't know what to say to
her.
What
we should do. That was something Nozomu himself wanted to know.
"Don't
mind it ... I didn't do something worth mentioning ..."
"You
helped us escape from that demon beast. You took care of us and cooked our
meals. Besides, you listened to my complaints without saying anything."
"......."
Although
her face was still a little tired and cloudy, it was much better than before.
However,
Nozomu knew very well that it was only superficial.
She
did have a smile on her face, but that smile was the same as what Nozomu showed
Irisdina and the others. It was the same mask worn by someone, who was
desperately trying to hide what was inside one's chest.
Her
masked smile raised anxiety that Nozomu couldn't express, and his chest
tightened.
"H-Hey.
About that previous demon beast ...."
"Thank
you very much. And ... I'm sorry. I've said a lot of awful things so far"
Nozomu
had something to say, but she took control and cut off Nozomu's words. She had
a sad-looking smile on her beautiful face.
"It's
about time for me to return. Thank you for the meal ..."
She
cut off Nozomu’s words before he could say anything else and came downstairs
with cold soup in hand.
"
!! "
Nozomu
unknowingly clenched his fist tightly.
When
he saw her fake smile, he felt some kind of kinship.
Nozomu
couldn't tell Irisdina and the others that he was a dragon slayer. Shīna
couldn’t escape from her own past.
They
had the same problem. They couldn't talk to the others even if they wanted to,
and they just felt like they were falling into an abyss where they couldn't see
the bottom. But even if they had the same doubts and hopelessness, they never
intersected.
Neither
of them could step forward.
They
tried their best to hold it in, and because they were used to holding it alone,
they forgot to look at anything other than themself.
Nozomu's
premonition hit the mark in the worst way.
The
next morning, Nozomu and the others only found Shīna's empty blanket and a note
that said, "Please, I'll leave Mimuru and Tom in your care."