Volume 2
Chapter 34
Sucked it Up
Translator : PolterGlast
【Natura's Perspective】
『Look at me properly.』
The words just spoken
by Kushina-san echoed through my mind.
What is he saying...?
Am I not looking at
Kushina-san? Am I not seeing life?
That can't be.
I love all life equally.
I love them, care for them, and cherish them.
There's no way that I,
of all people, wouldn't be looking at someone.
As proof, I was just
now feeling indignant about Kushina-san's current state.
"What are you
saying... Kushina-san? I am looking at you. I've always been looking at
you."
"Oh, is that so?
Then it must be my mistake, I'm sorry. I thought you, Natura-san, were only
focused on God."
"───"
Only focused on God?
Only caring about God?
Such a ridiculous
thing... There's no way that could be true.
I am... I am! One who
possesses love! One who spreads love! One who preaches love!
Even this indignation
is because of love! It must be a feeling that arose from my deep affection for
Kushina-san.
All my actions up
until now, at their core, have been rooted in my love for you───
『...How much more... how much more, God...!! How much
more can they... take from us before they're satisfied?』
───.
"………Ah"
I haven't been looking
at Kushina-san.
Such a thing...
happened.
That's right... I was
facing Kushina-san, but... I was so distracted by God that... I hadn't even
tried to look at Kushina-san as an individual.
I had simply been
treating him as a servant of God.
At some point, I had
even treated him as a spokesperson for God...?
Unbelievable... unbelievable!
There's no way that I, who speaks of love, wasn't looking at the other party...
Why... Why? Why is
this happening...?
This is...
unbelievable! This isn't me! It's not... not, not... not! Not! Not not not!!!
Notttttttttttttttttt!!!
Such, such... such a
thing...
I...!!!!
"Natura-san"
Kushina-san smiled at
me.
"Shall we
continue?"
───.
I experienced the
sensation of being speechless for the first time.
Kushina-san has been
looking at me consistently. He's smiling at me, refusing to take his eyes off
me.
Has there ever been
such a... such a... happy thing? Have I ever experienced such joy?
I've never met anyone
more devoted than him.
I've never met anyone
more reverent of love.
What have I been doing
to such a man?
………。
Is it still possible
to make amends now?
Will he continue to
love me?
……。
No, that's wrong.
To have such a
thought... to have such a wish is impure. Don't I know that love isn't like
that?
To wish is an
unacceptable form. The moment I wish, it can no longer be fulfilled.
It's not about wanting
unilaterally. If you truly have love... instead of wishing, you should seek. I
should also prove that I have love and show it to the other party, and receive
it from them in return. To seek love for each other mutually───that relationship is
true love!
I can't commit any
more sins.
………。
Why does Kushina-san
continue to look at me like this?
Why can he continue to
look at me with such straight eyes?
Why does he continue
to respond to me despite my sinful actions towards love?
Why... why.
……。
This is an emotion I
don't know.
I placed my right hand
on the ground.
"……Kushina-san."
"Hm? What is
it?"
"I apologize. As
you said, I wasn't looking at you. I was trying to see the imaginary God behind
you, through you. As someone who loves life, this is an unforgivable injustice.
I sincerely apologize."
"Don't worry
about it."
Kushina-san forgives
me with a smile, as if nothing had happened.
Right now, that...
that simple forgiveness, makes me happier than when he said, "I love you."
I return his smile
with my own.
"From now on, I
will only look at you. I will answer your feelings with all my heart."
I have always loved
all life. Even now, I have no intention of despising any life.
But at this moment...
only in this murderous love... I wanted to love only him. I genuinely wanted to
only look at him.
This is... a first.
I've never wanted to be so attached to someone.
………。
Ah... I see.
This is... the true...
I feel my smile deepen
naturally.
"Kushina-san."
"What?"
"I love you."
………。
What is this? I've
never felt so embarrassed saying these words. My body is naturally heating up.
But somehow, it feels
refreshing and pleasant.
Ah... Kushina-san...
Kushina-san, Kushina-san, Kushina-san, Kushina-san!
Kushina-san...!!!///
Feelings I can't put
into words overflow in my heart.
I can't... stop it
anymore!
"...I'm
sorry."
So please, forgive me
for being so selfish and demanding.
Please lend me your
power so that I can respond to that person's wishes.
Please, give me your
life.
I draw a large amount
of energy from the ground with my right hand.
As I do so, the plants
living around me wither one after another───no, I am withering them.
I am taking the lives
of plants for my own selfish desires.
The majestic trees,
the noisily growing flowers, the roots firmly fixed in the ground, the stems
bearing various fruits, even the fallen leaves that have finished their role
and lie on the ground, all wither one after another.
I love you.
So please, give me
your power.
I continue to draw
energy from my right hand.
Gradually expanding
the range from which I draw energy, the plants wither in proportion.
Eventually, I expanded
the absorption range to the entire forest.
The plants wither,
decay, and fall to the ground as dust.
Thank you... thank
you... and I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for looking
away to other lives (Kushina-san) even when I was taking a life.
Please forgive me for
not being able to only look at you (plants).
From now on, I will
become a beast that only loves Kushina-san (him).
And so, I drew all the
energy from this forest and absorbed it into my body.
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