Volume 1
Chapter 39
I Spoke to the
Woman
Translator : PolterGlast
"You enjoyed
fighting the Garma?"
The woman looked at me
with a doubtful expression.
Surely
"Garma" refers to the golems, right?
"Yeah."
"Nonsense.
There's no way that's possible. There are those who enjoy fighting, but no one
desires death. How many times have you experienced death? You must have
suffered each time. Didn't it hurt? Wasn't it painful? Are you saying you came
here to feel that? If so, you are a pervert of the highest order."
No, that's too harsh.
"That's not what
I mean. I don't seek pain. I just enjoy fighting strong opponents."
"I told you it's
impossible. You just want the pleasure of victory, don't you? But no one would
risk their life just to get that. The pain of being killed is something to be
avoided. If there's no other reason, what you're saying is absurd. What you're
risking and what you're gaining don't balance out."
"Does pain and
suffering really matter?"
"…………Ha!?"
The woman raised her
voice in surprise.
I don't understand why
she's so surprised.
Honestly, I still
don't understand human thought very well. I think I've finally acquired
human-like emotions since coming to this world. But I still don't understand
human thought very well.
I can predict what
actions people with certain personalities will take next. But I have no idea
how they arrived at that thought.
I don't understand why
I think that way, and why I'm so different from other people. There is a gap
between my thought process and that of others that I can't seem to bridge.
"Pain is just
pain, and suffering is just suffering. There's nothing more to feel. There's no
need to feel anything more. Why are humans so sensitive to pain and suffering?
What's the point of thinking beyond that?"
"………."
"The excitement
of fighting and the exhilaration of victory are much richer and sweeter. If I
can feel that, then pain and suffering are nothing. They become meaningless to
me."
After saying that, the
woman looked at me as if appraising me.
...I wonder if she
listened properly. I hope she understands my reasons and lets me go with a
light punishment.
"………Hmph, it's
still impossible. Such an existence is impossible, even for a god. Even that
ferocious male gods hated feeling pain. Much less you, a taboo human.
Impossible."
I don't appreciate
being judged like that. It seems I couldn't convince her.
But "taboo"
means all humans, right? It wasn't directed at me personally. ...But if that's
the case, then this woman isn't human. Then what is she?
"You're just
talking nonsense, aren't you? Are you really not interested in the treasure or
weapon that is believed to be hidden here? And you just made up an excuse to be
forgiven because you encountered me on the way?"
"No, I'm really
not interested in treasure or anything like that..."
"Shut up. Can you
confidently say that you don't want treasure or weapons, that you don't have
even a little bit of desire for such things?"
"I can."
"───!"
If I kept silent here,
she would gain the upper hand, so I interrupted her.
The woman glared at me
irritably.
"………Hmph, no
matter how many sophistry arguments you make, it doesn't change the fact that
you broke into this place without permission.
You are a criminal from the moment you did that."
"I'm really
sorry. I was completely in the wrong about that. Sorry."
"───grrr!"
The woman seemed even
angrier and glared at me sharply, gnashing her teeth. Did I say something
wrong?
"It's so absurd,
unreasonable, and illogical! I get so irritated talking to you! My 'purity' is
being polluted!! If you're sorry, show it with your actions! Get out of
here!!"
The woman raised her
voice and waved her hand roughly, telling me to leave.
...Really? Is that
okay?
"Okay, I'll go.
I'm sorry for the trouble. Bye."
Since I got permission
from the woman, I quickly turned around and went back the way I came.
□□□
【Woman's POV】
"Wha...!"
The human is actually
leaving.
What is that...? Why
doesn't he fight back more? After dying so many times, he's just going to leave
empty-handed?
...Could it be that he
was really enjoying fighting the golems? Even though he enjoyed it, he didn't
prioritize it and still listened to my words?
If I had just told him
to "get out" from the beginning, it would have been over, wouldn't
it? What is that? It's as if I'm the foolish one.
"………!"
So, it means that I
was the ugliest one in this situation.
Originally, I hated
dirty things.
Of course, I've never
thought of myself as pure. I received the name of the Pure God from my mother,
but my mother is the purest existence in this world. I don't know of anyone
purer than her. Compared to her state of mind, I am too filthy. I hate even
myself.
But until now, I was
able to ignore my own ugliness because there were many others who were uglier
than me.
But that human is
different.
Although a taboo, he
is at least different from the other ordinary beings.
In this situation, I
was clearly more filthy. Thanks to him, I had to examine my own ugliness.
[Chrisya,───]
I remember my mother's
words.
"───!"
Normally, I don't want
to interact with anyone other than my mother. But───
I suppressed my
feelings and started walking towards where the human had gone to.
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